So I finally find, or rather am given, a beautiful and wonderful friend. She lands in my lap, actually. She shows up at my house and stays for a bit over a month. We have so much fun, laugh, talk, go on adventures and generally fall into a great friendship from the moment we meet.
I was thinking that this gift of friendship would be one that would fuel me up for the next hard season of ministry. I knew she was leaving. So I embraced every moment I could. I chose to sit and visit sometimes instead of doing laundry. I went to the beach one more time cause she liked it so much. i got the groceries she liked cause I wanted her time here to be special. And it was. I felt was more alive than I have been for a long time.
And now she's gone. We still talk on the phone and email back and forth. But instead of being fueled up I feel more empty. I tasted something sweet and now I miss it more than ever.
I want to follow God and be faithful to what he's called us to here, but I feel more pulled to just up and leave to anywhere dear friends are.
I just feel so lonely here and wish for a friend who is easy to be with.
They have come into my life at different times and I have loved it. But now I feel like I need it. I feel the hole and think it needs to be filled.
God knows what I need. I'm glad he gave it to me even for a month... but it sure would be nice to have a friend near by.
